"It is never to late to be what you might have been." -George Elliot

So it's two days before the "BIG" day-the day my life changes forever and I hope in a positive way only!
I've had sooo many operations and so I'm not sure why I still get nervous but I do...
I should find out today what time we need to be at the hospital.  We live 3-4 hours away from the hospital so we'll get up very early and venture south. 
They say that you should have goals set for yourself for after surgery-I don't.  They say you need to have those to look forward to but for some reason, God just decided to give me peace about it and I do.  Except for a few nerves.  I also think that part of the peace that Gods given me is in the form of Effexor.  I started taking that for anxiety attacks that I was having on the way to chemo...I will NEVER go off them!!  I don't care that I am "numb" or whatever people call it, to emotions.  I am able to live a basically anxiety free life while still having evil around me trying to corrupt my wonderful little world-Effexor is the armor that allows me to kick ass to those that are crap!

So maybe I do have a couple goals....being able to sit and gracefully cross my leg without looking like there is a tree trunck in my lap, well and to actually have a lap would be nice as well!  The other is to wear knee high boots and have them look nice (ok and a bit sexy wouldn't hurt).  My main goal is HEALTH.  Did you get that point HEALTH.  I have been to hell and back thanks to cancer-I've looked death in the face a few times put my hand up and said

 

I am in control of this life and body....I will be what I was meant to be.